So I Cope and Let It Ride

So I cope and Let I Ride

Omg... a lot has been going on right?! So much in such a short time. Trust me, I’m right here with you and I already had a shitload piled on me before this bullshit. Everyday I wake up thinking it was all a dream —only to find that my reality is all too real. My kids are still out of school for at least two more weeks ( we’ll see) and are going stir crazy. The Corona virus is. really happening, salons are closed for three weeks ( we’ll see) , I’m concerned about family members, and I have friends who are ill now. I want my kids to stay corona free. Not to mention that my anxiety is at an all time high and I’ve had several breakdowns on several occasions. This is my life today as I know it. So coping, how exactly do you cope with that? The New Oxford American Dictionary defines the word cope as “to deal effectively with something difficult ”. I think we can agree that this is something difficult. The uncertainty of each day. Of course each day is uncertain on it’s own. But adding a global crisis adds layers that can’t be counted. But the question remains: how do we get through the day to day? Here’s something I’ve been up to pre crises; I talk to God. I ask him a lot of questions. Because I’m searching for the answer. Im searching for an answer. I’m searching for any answer. About anything. In recent months, I’ve been asking so many questions, sometimes the same question over and over again, that I’ve started on a new path of awareness... within myself. That, my friend, is a double edged sword ( shoutout to my therapist ✊🏾). So currently, I’m aware of the things around me, while simultaneously still coping with the uncertainty of the day to day. That’s a hard pill to swallow. And clearly I haven’t found a balance...Which prompted this blog post I suppose. As you can imagine, it gets interesting when I talk to God—even when I’m mad at him. However, he still answers my prayers and gives me what I need. I can’t argue with that. However, he is always reminding me that I need to be ready for what I’m asking for.  I say it like that because my new found awareness is a lot.  Because when I saw, I saw. In a way that I had never seen before. And trust it wasn’t all cute and cuddly. It was like, 6 of my questions were answered in 5 minutes and all I had to do was be still in the midst of chaos. And that’s another thing, what we are experiencing is chaos. This is full blown chaos. It’s a mess. A pot of boiling water bubbling over and it won’t stop. So I ask you, what are you doing in the midst of the chaos? Globally, the pot can’t call the kettle black.  However, someone needs you right now. Someone benefits from your kinds words, or texts or posts or kind whatever. Cuz someone is at their breaking point or close to it. People are hanging on by a thread for so many reasons.... and they need YOU...I think that’s all. Thanks for riding out with me.

Always Gracious, Forever Seamless

XOXO PaigeRyan 💋